1st Day of Spring, Boy I feel Brand New!

So it's March...a great month for so many reasons. Can I tell you... I have so many reasons to be thankful. For one: two years ago I had a life changing event that allowed me to become who I am today. An event so powerful, it allowed me to mature into myself and really see what I was all about. It all happened on March 1st of 2005.

I think that for many of us, we face a challenge in life that forces us to make tough choices. Depending on how we handle the situation, can make or break our near future. Sometimes expected, while other times unexpected; all in all for the better (if you think postive). It truly is better that way. Challenge that is... I mean you really don't know what your capable of until you "rise" to the challenge (as the cliche goes).

Making it on my own, may have been heaven sent. The thing that I really needed to feel motivated. Since that day I can say I have been motivated. I can now dream without the fear of them being crushed. Speak without the fear of being shunned. Speak. It's crazy thinking about how I used to live, before that special March 1st 2005.

For the most part, I like to think forward to the project ahead, while other times I like to reflect and think of all the people that helped me survive. The funny thing is that friends will be there for you when you really need them, which is contarary to a belief my sister and her husband hold. I do ask them now...If you say friends are never there for you, when you need them most, then what would that make you when you weren't there for me? ...

Lesson#...You can't choose your family but you can choose your friends.

The one thing I wish those in my past would see is: love is defeated when it can not remain unconditional; at least in my opinon.

There really is no point in saying you care for someone or love someone if you have a list of restrictions/reservations for how that love can manifest. I think love transcends belief, religion, politics, race, sex(uality) and orientation, etc. Whether God fearing or not.

Random words...

Tired, weak, I was shunned.

Could not speak unless told,

I was the slient one.

Work so hard all day,

To come home and tuck away.

Straight & Narrow,

The way you like,

It just ain't me,

Retreat to the place I knew best,

Thoughts and whispers,

Confirm I was more not less.

You said lies,

You thought were true.

I am me,

Yet I defy you.

Truth be told

Truth be lived

Truth be love

because that is all I know.

-His Sstory-